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When silence speaks: Clarity begins

As my thoughts churn in the shower, I reflect on the events of the previous day, trying to make sense of the intentions behind each action.

This place, this house, is becoming something I can’t stand. The person I’m turning into isn’t who I want to be. What is happening to me? These thoughts flood my mind as the water trickles over me. I stand there, mindlessly lost in thought.

What can I do? What steps can I take? How can I pull myself out of this state and move forward without being dragged down by my surroundings? Suddenly, my mind clears. It’s as if the endless questions have exhausted themselves, leaving me in a state of quiet blankness.

Out of nowhere, an idea emerges. It’s as if hitting a dead end has emptied me, and in that brief moment of silence, the answer I’ve been seeking breaks through. Yes, this could work. I’ve always had a knack for this. This might just be my way out.

Sometimes, in life, we find clarity only after we’ve let everything go. When we stop the chatter, silence the questions, and simply listen, the answers we seek can finally come to us. It’s often ourselves who stand in the way of finding those answers.

I’ve always been like this—constantly questioning myself, my abilities, my worth, my solutions. I even question my own actions. But these questions often feel like attacks, eroding my confidence. Why do we do this? Why have we learned to undermine ourselves in this way?

Reflection is valuable, but when it turns into self-criticism, it becomes destructive. If we linger too long in this state, we stagnate. It’s like being lost in a desert with no way out—our minds plagued by hallucinations and delusions when we lose control. I see this not only in myself but in those around me. Excuses, self-pity, and the rationalization of our situations lead to stagnation.

Our world is a whirlwind of thoughts, often endless and mostly useless. True strength comes when we stop, listen, step away from self-doubt and fear, see the truth, and take action. Those we admire—the athletes, the parents who protect and provide for their families—have all overcome the barriers within themselves. There’s something magical, powerful, and beautiful about overcoming oneself. For them, there is no option, no hesitation—only the determination to do what needs to be done.

Listening is a wonderful start, but action is the key to moving forward.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f30Oah_8PfU

Journey to love

As I wake up this morning a story dance in my mind… I have been reading stories after stories of love and the interaction between people and the following story emerge on my mind.

There is this girl, who had a quiet mother, who was in an abusive relationship with a man who has an alcohol problem. They have many children and one child journey to love story come through.

This child grows up in an uncertain environment. She is a natural thinker and introvert that ponder life and people action and inaction through her high school life. Love is something she never thought she wanted or have from a man.

One day she met a man Mr X who she has chemistry with but she did not understand this feeling. Somehow they connected but this man is not a nice man to her from the beginning. She did not know what love, lust or attraction was. She did want to see what this chemistry mean to her.

There was no real relationship but in her mind, she thought it was a relationship. Until one day she met this other man Mr Y. Mr Y like her from the first moment, he met her but she did not know that. She had a moment of recognition but she did not think much about it and dismiss it.

At this moment after they met Mr Y persuade her. Out of nowhere, Mr X man shows up, trying to engage with her with the intention of asking for her money. She gave him money. What happened next was her blessing. One event while Mr Y was driving her home, she was on a call with Mr X. Mr Y purposely said something to scare Mr X away. It worked and Mr X got upset and never show himself to her again.

*Love is best when we are together focusing on what in front of us*

Soon after she and Mr Y became a lover. As a person who has no experience with love, she did not respond to him when he said he needed to go in his cave for a few days. She did not mine or worry about that. If he does not want to contact her she did not care or made any effort to do so at the beginning of the relationship.

In ways he was the first person that teach her to love, she did not know how to express herself, to allow love to flow to her, give and receive love. He taught her a little part of love.

She was looking for unconditional love. The love that books and stories have written about. But in her search, she did not see, moments of this unconditional love he has given her. She only sees that moment he was not expressing the love she wanted.

Their love was good until when he needed love and support, she did not know what to do to help him. She just tries to supporting quietly at a distance. Giving him space and just watching him. His own destruction killed the relationship. She did not know how to get him out of the dark place and so that was the beginning and the end of their relationship. She is now pregnant with an unborn child picking up what he had left behind. She did not want this mess that he left, but there was no other choice for her.

*When darkness get to yo, it feels so lonely*

As she was a thinker she understands him, Mr Y, so well but did not know what to do to express her love to him. All this time he did most of the move towards her but when he need to see support and love she did not know what to do. Because love is not her strong point. All she sees is how to be like her mum, holding in everything and being strong, not showing affection. Even though inside she loved him dearly.

She did not want to blame him for his action that hurt her so much. It because she understands and traces where his mind was at.

Soon she gave birth to her first child. Her mind was still unsure of what is happening and what has happened. But she did what she can with her troubled mind.

Her child soon became her world. Even watching this child gave her joy seeing this child so pure innocent and full of life gave her power. The love this child have was amazing and she began to see and understand love. Love grows in her, understanding what love means and how to give love came more and more naturally. This child has taught her how to love and deepen her understanding of it.

In reflecting on this story, it is a blessing to her in all events that she could not see at that time. Thanks, Mr X, who opens the door to Mr Y to enter her life. Yes, he was not the best person at the end of their relationship but he gave her a taste of love. He started her growth and journey to love. It a petty he was not patient or strong enough to see her grow and blossom.

There is a great lesson in all relationship and interaction a person has. Some can say she could have saved her relationship if she knew better but she didn’t. On the outside, you can say that both Mr X and Y is not a good person. It may be true but there is goodness in all bad or good situation. Every hurtful action Mr Y has done to her, she can explain in her mind.

That her power, she reaches into a person mind and seeks to see why they act the way they do. She knows he was disappointed in himself, in his work, he thinks he can not make her happy so he leaves. Doing hurtful thing to make her stop loving him so be can leave. It may not be the right way to her or others but we don’t know what a person mind is like.

We all have done silly things that we look back on and we think we should have done it better. But at that moment that the best solution you can come up with in that clouded mind. So be easy on you and be easy on others.

It does not excuse his action but if you don’t know better, can we really finger point? I see in her case and his case they did not have the knowledge and teaching they need to deal with life. We all have different personality background and experience. All this teaches us, guide our action. There is no manual to life. We sense our way in this world. So I see and understand why people do silly and hurtful things. It is a shame because it has great potential like many ended relationship out there.

In this story what a person think effect their reaction, one chooses what to think. She is a beautiful girl who seeks to understand and show compassion. In a way, she did truly love him. She did not react but let him be. She quietly wishes he would see pass everything and see her love. But her clouded mind, insecurity about his love towards her, her worth to him and distance herself from him.

She is happy now as her daughter brings her tremendous love and joy. Nothing can compare to that.

In reflection, he was her hero and her villain. He pushed the other person away, giving her a moment of unconditional love, what she wanted but she did not see them or hold onto them. Taught her to communicate, interact with people and did actually loved her. The best thing was giving her a child to hold and loved. The scar of the breakup is there but it has healed with compassion.

There is really not a bad story but a good one. It depends on you what you want to see. Yes, she can see his hurtful action and resent him but she chooses to see the love in him and only remember moments of joy and happiness. If seeing other acts of love, revenge does not exist.

I see stories of revenge resulting in parent death or great losses of something kind but it all turns sour. It is an endless cycle of revenge and hatred. Where love shine peace exist. Move to love and light see through the darkness and you will be much happier.

Seeds

The world is an amazing place with many wonders within wonder. I see this world as anew everyday as today what seems the same is not really the same. I see people with different clothing, The tree and sky is a different colour, shape from yesterday. My room also changes as my mood and motion change a little.

For those of us who are asleep throughout our days, nothing seems to change. It just the same Job doing the same things. But if your look the problem is the same but the telling of the stories may be different. Is it more dramatic this time around? How many spices have been added to the stories?

When you stop and look outside. It is so beautiful even though it cold. The sky is slightly blue and brighter because my eye is open to it. The world seems to be filled with colour as I seek to remember moments.

Today was good as I listen to your complaint. I wonder why can you see the beauty of today because I see the beauty in you even though it may seem you are far away.

I see many happy moments with you, my mind stops just to remembering, take note of this moment of your true where everything surrounding you seems so bright but you are the brightest. I wonder when will you stop and see what I am seeing. This moment in time. You catch my eye and your world in that true stop. You sense my world, vision and smile. It does not matter, does it? you smile grab my hand and our world expand. The sky is so much bluer and brighter, the leaf of the tree shimmer with emerald green, glistening in the light of day. The path seems brighter and whiter then it was before. The truth that was told has to disappear and a new truth has emerged. The true on wonders, adventure, the created path that could seem to be of focus. Talk of fun and laughter bring life back to you.

The days seem long but the time short. Sunshine moonlight guide our days and tomorrow will bring new beginning new pages to fill.

I wonder what tomorrow will be for today was perfect. I did not absorb your cry, your frustration, nor prejudice. All I see are the best of you. The person with so much sunshine in them that only I have chosen to see. We all have a moment where we should our unnatural self, the painful side of us. But if only one person sees pass this be unaffected by it. Hold my/your true of love, sunshine and joy. Life changes for you.

As I sit here reflecting on my day, and my relationship, moment where love shines in me when someone else does not show love but a reflection of their inner turmoil. There is a feeling of accomplishment. Your small bit for this world has been done for the day. It is small but today I change you for just that moment in time. It is small compared to your whole life but that moment is a seed I planted in you. To calm your fire and hopefully for you to plant seed amongst others.

Plant seeds in you and others and watch them grow. Gardening is very rewarding.

With all my love for this world, tifferific….. share your world with us… share your beauty with us.

Moment in Time

We have days where emotion is still and life record itself. Well, I have those time. Many say these time can be a little boring, maybe they are, maybe they are not.

It really depends on your experience in life where you are. For people who have being through rain and storm, these time are bliss but for those who been through roses and honey, this time can be boring. It is really how you want to look at your current moment in time and space.

After storm or drama after drama, these moment of stillness and silence are a blessing. After stillness and drama come these moments of exploring yourself defining your self is a blessing. For with moment of definition through challenges and confliction, we explore life in a different view. But what defines us is how we take on this challenge or endeavour. Most of us will cry about it, dramatised it, focus on the problem and not the solution. This is because we see the world as being against us, we are a victim of other infliction. But is that the whole story?

There are many ways one can see the world in a situation like this. One way is definitely being a victim. But there is another way one can see this situation. Most religious people see this as a test to test your endurance and your faith. For me I see this as an expansion to my personal growth, expanding my mind and expanding my personality, defining what I want and don’t want in this lifetime. I also believe we have a lot of roles to play in this lifetime, angle and villain. These roles are to teach and learn from others define what is right for you. We are all not bad nor good as to some we are an angle and other we are a devil. Each we need to play to teach and learn.

None of these is wrong if you think they are not but my interjection is why not choose a thought that will empower you, give you strength and belief and make you stronger and happier. When you play a villain and regret afterwards, know that that action is and was meant for your expansion. Understand that both you and the inflicted person need to go through this to learn and expand. Don’t keep hatred in your heart as it is a poison that will eat away your freedom of mine and add weight to your life. When you change the victim self to a creator or writer of your story, the hero with a happy ending. Life will change your mind and body. Lighten it with hope, love and happiness. Your outer world is dependant on your inner world. If you search for the good in life and only see the good, then you are in heaven. If you see bad and only bad you are in hell.

Where do you want to be? It is easy for me.

Expansion

Expansion! Ideas on this topic have been swirling in me continuously remind me that its time for me to release it. As an observer of life within myself and others concept and ideas about life seem to come to me like a river or a light bulb switching on. As a person, who is not formally educated in the area of human behaviour my mind and my soul seems to be drawn to this area.

Life is like an endless journey of doors opening up to you if you see its true purpose and potential. We all been through something in life, some are more heavy-hearted than others. I myself have been through my share of the world challenges and heartache. As a sensitive person, it seems to be a little harder on me as I absorb it into me really carry this weight and burden. Well, back then more than now. Some still reside in me now.

But in reviewing my life and all the major events that happen to me. I see growth and improvement with me that make me think. I am dammed lucky that I been through all that pain or heartache. Because from raising above those moments in life, I have heightened my self, open more doors to my mind and life.

Yes, love has left me, but it teaches me to love others and myself. It allows me to be a better lover and break my pattern. Once I work out what I did wrong I move to make it better. We are all growing and learning is our own way. we define what is really is that we want in life, in this case, a partner. Some lesson seems smaller than others, but they are equally important in our development and creation of ourselves.

Growing up in an unconventional family make me different. I never thought I fit in anywhere, even today I am different from the norm. But through the struggle of my past, we triumph today. The fear of difference is no longer an issue but celebrated.

I see that tragedy or what people call misfortune as an expansion event. With loss one coming out of our life, we truly see the value to life and the value of an individual. We can say we are sorry but to truly feel it and live it loss give that to you. So I don’t see events of pain as a bad thing anymore. It is an opportunity for us to expand be better, to grow as a person, be compassionate towards those who have suffered and be a guide for those who have yet to come through this path.

The destruction of one self-image or one persona is liberating. As an Asian who brought up with face or image of oneself as important. The destruction of oneself was disappointing to those who love you. What others see you and what you think others see you can be tiring to live up to. Once this image is destroyed and your attachment shock has resolved itself. The new you can be born. There is no or less expectation to bind you down, because to you that image you once had was gone and you are free to create whatever you want. For me, I see that it an opportunity to recreate an image closer to what you imagine yourself to me. I started to express myself through my clothes and expand me and acted more free to become the current me. My judgement of other simmer down. I understand now. A butterfly is created in me. Beautiful with all its glory. Woww… it so amazing when you think about all your tragedy that way. There is beauty in all things even if it may seem ugly at first. Life is like this evolution of growth, with every stumble there is expansion and growth. Reaching into you to pull out another beautiful you. You are sheading your skin or for me, it is like a flower opening up to reveal your inner beauty, blossoming endlessly as you go through life.

We are beautiful if only we see this beautiful rose in us, forever blossoming. Don’t take tragedy as your downfall because it is not. It is your growth and expansion. It is you concurring yourself, taking charge and leading life to your fullest. A broken man is a person who closes doors into himself. Don’t do that to yourself, you are too precious and beautiful to do that to the only person that matter and that is you. Open doors, move forward, move towards lights or be that light for yourself. You can not survive if you do not grow and expand so allow your soul and your body to turn unfortunate events to fortunate events. Allow yourself to fall and expand. You own this to yourself. Nothing that has ever happen that has not been experienced by this earth or universe. Everything moves on and forwards and so must you. Don’t kill your spirit by not allowing yourself to fall experience and grow. Know that every event embedded is for your expansion, so expand with the universe this world we live in.

I am not saying you can not be sad or angry or all the emotion that one goes through in a situation. Go through it but know what this event is for four growth and expansion. Know that you need this to define yourself and be a better you. So be happy again. Nothing is really bad if you can only see the bigger picture of your life. You have come this far be happy and grateful life has given you so much lesson learn it and move on to the next level.

Feel free to let us know your lesson or expansion…

Love starts with you and flows to…

There is something so powerful about a person who takes care of themselves, holds their own, who respectfully do not care about others negative opinion.

Life is full of people who are insecure about themselves and are motivated to do things to please others or feed their insecurity. Many of us look at those confident people with envy. I am no exception.

I believe in loving yourself, really take care of you because who the hell will do that for you. Your mother or father may do that when you are dependant on them. But there will be a time when that stream will waver. When you feed on others as your primary source, it is limited but when you feed on you, grow your self-love. It is endless and abundance that will overflow to those closes to you. When the source comes from within it feel different, the joy, inspiration is amazing. It like when you accomplish a goal on your own two hands. The sense of achievement is supreme.

Love is a powerful thing. It is indescribable when you have it growing within you, world and mountain can be move, nothing can top this feeling. Loving yourself is one of those things.

So what does loving yourself mean? Most of us even myself for many years does not know what love is or true love is. Most of us love selfishly. If you do this or satisfy this I will love you, you hit the spot with this and that I will love you. If you don’t hurt me by doing this that, I will love you. We all have our limits and criteria on when love cannot be given. It’s our right and our choice, no one can judge us or condemn us, as no one is exactly like us to judge or experience what we have to judge.

However, knowing what selfish love is – ‘a love with conditions’. This does not work with you, yourself. How can you divorce yourself? How can you break up with yourself? Even if you try, your still there with you. You can get rid everyone around you, but you can not get rid of the person inside you.

The Next question is what is true love and how can I love yourself. Woww this is a powerful question. True love to yourself, the only person you can give true love to, is loving without condition.

What does that mean? I ponder this question for a while.

To me, it means forgiving yourself for all the mistake you make even if it is terrible, awful and hurtful and knowing that you are learning and growing. Allow yourself to grow and learn. We are not fixed, we are like nature always growing and changing so why not allow yourself to do the same thing? Be our own best friend when we are sad, bring ourselves up when we feel down, pick yourself up, do things that will make you feel better. Encourage ourselves, be gentle to yourself, be understanding and be proud of what you have done. For every journey is different. The journey you have chosen has enriched you even if it is a tough journey. Be proud that you survive this long without a manual to living life or the secret to life. Reminds yourself that the only person that matter is you. And the only person that truly can love you is you.

I am not saying that we don’t see others around us and ignore the world, but when times are tough if ignoring the world keep you sane and happy, love yourself enough to do that. When others motivate actions it’s not true love, but when action is motivated by compassion and understanding that is true love. So be compassionate towards yourself. You will see that you are more compassionate towards others.

Taking care of yourself is important. You don’t need to be like a model, but your body is like your most favourite thing in this world. Have pride in it; look after it. It is all you got that will carry you through this life journey. Love it and take care of it.

I am imperfect is the most perfect way… I love my being, physically and spiritually. There is a strong bond with this body of mine, it brings me joy and experience, so I want to take care of it. How about you? Do you love you? And every part of you? Start finding love in you even if it just one small like like the perfect nail. Start somewhere and expand. Start by just looking.

Bad or Good news?

A piece of news comes to a close person to my heart about there health that saddens them. Am I surprised? Honestly no, sad? That the question I want to explore a little more. There is no feeling about it to me. Most people around this person is concerns. But for me, I am not concerned in the way that other people. When news arrives at your door, it is you who give meaning to it. Is it really bad or good news?

When the news was told to me my reaction or initial thought was I don’t want to pay too much attention to this. Yes, I acknowledge it, but I do not want to feed it more energy then it deserves.

We live in this world where the inner world manifest to our outer world. My text to this person was, I acknowledge it, but I do not want to talk about it or feed energy to this. All I want them to do is focus on their own happiness. What makes them happy.

It may seem cold but my reality it is not. As a human in this society, we are trained to focus on the problem and issue that does nothing to our well being. In our mind anything that we considered negative we see this circling in our mind, those words, those images playing over and over again. As we spiral down our emotion follow us down too. These thoughts are energy. Every thought we aid this negative idea will make it bigger in our mind. In turn, our world does not seem so incredible anymore.

The next day, I call this particular person. We had a long conversation. I see or hear resistance to the ideas of her happiness or finding something that will help her get out of this mindset. Its a comfort yet a hindrance. For someone who speaks about being open to positivity mindset, they are not open to it. I ask why you are so resistant to be happy or appreciative. Words are spoken, but not emotion is connected to it. Words that is supposed to empower you to give your emotion seem to be missing. Explaining the purpose of this exercise using ideas that were said to have positive feeling seem to have nothing — explaining my intention for these topics of conversation. But when someone does not want to hear or is open to hearing it was difficult. But the love for this person was strong. I start to listen to a little more, fighting back my resistance and grabbing to what was believes the issue on their perspective with that cause them to be where they are. We forget at the time that our world is directly linking with your mental state. It motivates us and drive us. It creates passion and destruction.

Independence was identified as their issue by this person. OK. Having dependence on their partner does not sit well with this person. Specifically financial dependence. It strange how within our mind we see the world so specifically and ignore other things in our life. It so narrow and it break us up.

So what can I say about this? Well, it clearly at this moment you are not working or in a position to generate income for independence that you need. But if independence is what you need to feel better, then there are many things at this moment that we can explore to give you that feeling. If independence is what you feel that cripple your situation then let us step back and explore it. Do you rely on others to walk, move, feed yourself? There are people out there who can do that for themselves, aren’t your super lucky you are independence enough to be able to support yourself in that way. Aren’t you blessed? How lucky are you to not rely on your partner to do all this for you, be a burden? How does that feel to you? I waited for a response.

You can cook, right? You don’t need someone to cook for you because you can cook for yourself and nourish your body. You are independence. There are many people out there who can not cook. Are you independent in that sense? The conversation continues with word of independence, and they have this. More example was spoken to allow them to see how special and lucky we all are, but we forget about it — those simple thing we take for granted that many don’t have or loss this privilege.

We look at life so narrow at times to make us feel bad. But there are times when we need to step back and see the other side or other aspects. Look for things that you have now that give you what you need. In this case, it is independence. We have all the aspect that we want, but we do not see it at times when we are too focused on the problem or issue. Sooth your self, neutralise those negative thoughts.

We spoke about this health news is as not a bad thing. To me, it is a good thing as the amazing body we have is letting us know that it is not ok with what happening with ourselves. It is fighting back to tell you to listen, wakeup and listen. Look after the one person that matter and that is you. Look after your spiritual self. Woww, how amazing is this body of ours. This is a blessing that our body gives us this health issue. It is giving your sign that you cannot ignore but listen to, or what you should be focusing on. It is guiding you. Woww, how super amazing is that.

We go through life ignoring what our heart tells us. What our body tells us. Every pain you hear or feel is telling you to stop hating yourself for the mistake or action. We can make changes now at this moment. When you quietly listen without resistance, you know what to do. Do it without judgement to yourself. We judge ourselves and create anger resentment toward our action and other action. When you let it go and let it flow nothing can hurt you. We hold on ideas so tight it cannot breathe but die in our hand. Breathe the idea and let it free, as what yours cannot be lost it like a loyal pet or dog always return home to you.

Before we said our bye I said ‘Don’t look for what you want outside it is inside.’ Your world is amazing if you want it to be. It starts with just one thought at a time.

There is more work that needs to be done to recover. It not only take physical action but also maintaining your inner world, your thoughts.

Judgement an automatic path

We live in a world where we a quick to judge people and label people for anything and everything. Don’t you hate being judged? especially if they are wrong.

Instinct is what we have that can save us in many situations. It a form of judgement that we make about a situation. Here we are not talking about this kind of situation.

Every one of us has different taste and different opinion about things. Yes, there is something that we agree on but there are things we don’t agree on as well. Our mind is wired so differently from other people that it makes us unique and one of a kind, just like our fingerprint.

Hence, if others don’t do things the way we think is right we make a judgement or even the opposite we make a judgement. This is part of our nature or what has been pass on to us as a skill or practice. I love clothes and dressing up. I love to look my best, I think that you care for yourself enough to look after you. It is not for anyone but for me if others enjoy it. It is a bonus, but the looks I get some time at work or on the street is a mix of positive and negative (mostly positive). It is kind of strange and it made me think. All these people don’t know me, don’t know my motivation, background or even how I was raised and taught; live and think the way I think know me yet judgement is so quick and fast.

I bear this trait too… But it made me think we are like a rose there are multiple layers that are yet to be seen. What you see is one petal of me, those stranger, others like my friends and family see a few more petal. We are not fixed, like a rose we grow and blossom spreading our wings, don’t put us in a box and fixed us, see that we have depth and layer upon layer of growth and beauty to show.

Yes, see the now, but keep an open heart for the potential in us. Know that this mistake or this moment is not the end of us, the whole or fixed us. This is the beginning of me or you to blossom and beautify ourselves. Nothing is really a mistake but a lesson, some are faster to learn, others take their time.

Judgement sound so negative and fixed. So tomorrow I will see this world a new. See the mistake or the one view as not complete, it is only the surface of you, knowing that a better you are still to come. If I have the privilege to see you again I hope to see and explore more of your beauty and growth, for nothing is truly ugly if you step back and look for its beauty. You will find something.

For with love the world is wonderful like heaven without love the world is hell. Where do you want to be?

To my Valentine

Since Valentine day is coming up, I felt I should write a love letter. It is not to anyone in particular. It just what we forget to say or sometimes don’t know what to say, or know what our true feeling is.

To my dearest love,

There are so many things I learnt through my life but with love, I am still learning. So please forgive me when I do something wrong or stupid.

Firstly, I want you to know I don’t care about your past. You are where you are, as experience has made you the person you are today, that comes to me so freely and welcoming. Those people who hurt you or you hurt made you the amazing person you are today so please don’t carry that burden with you. I don’t need or want to know who you been with or what happens in the past as it is not important to me. What is important is that you are here with me, my love. What we have today and tomorrow is all that matter to me. But if you want to share your past with me I am open to it too. I know it does not matter what you have done. The people you hurt, the people that hurt you, it does not matter because what matter is what we have here, what you learnt and what we can do to make our love stronger, create memories and the journey we take.

When I am upset or when you are upset I will try to remember that you are fighting with yourself and it has nothing to do with me. I will not take it personally and you should not take it personally. Remind me how amazing you are. Remind me what matter and what is important to me. When I am sad, it not because of anyone but me, I feel loss and out of control. It is all in me the words and the world I have created in my mind. Show me a new world, show me a new vision for I have forgotten about it. I will do the same. When you are unhappy I will create a new vision for you, show you the new possibilities that we can create. Remind you that there is always a better way to see this world.

When you close yourself from me and I can not reach you, I will reach you through my heart sending you love, compassion, give you strength at a distance. When you are ready I am here so we can continue our journey together.

So my love when you are sad and I am not there, look for me in you, see me smiling at you with arm wide open running to you. Whatever mistake you make I know it the journey you have to take to develop yourself.

Let continue to walk together, I hope that we walk until we are old and grey but in life, we never know what it gives us. If or when our journey end please know that nothing is forgotten all the good memories will always be with me. Know that at this point in time our path has split as there are things we need to learn to be our better selves and I can not provide you with what you want and need to grow and blossom. Move forward without me.

Love is always there even when I am old and grey, for you are part of my memorable journey of love. It’s an imprint I can never remove.

Thank you for reading my letter of love. I hope you feel warm this valentine day…. if you don’t have anyone this letter is for your future love. Feel your lover and that person will come. You will know it when it comes.

Happy Valentine Everyone.

Happiness is a thought away

It is interesting how life brings you so much experience, where emotion is like a wave coming in and out of us, affecting state and those around us.
Emotion like happiness is a feeling we get. So how can thought create this feeling? That the question I would ask. I can tell you one thing it does make a difference our thought, what we focus on, the self-talk that we have.

I have personally done some test on myself to see how my thought effects me. I have use appreciation as a way of changing my mood at night when my mind is so active I need to sooth it. Writing down what I am grateful for just makes me happy, feeling blessed. It does not have to be big, for me my bed is fantastic. I am grateful for my beautiful, functional bed. It keeps my comfort and warmth. I appreciate my lovely home giving me protection from the weather and a place to stay and keep all my things, a place called home. There are so many things to be grateful for even this body of our functioning so well, Like our leg heart, brain, all these things we that for granted. However, without it, the world seems to have ended.

I have even go to work looking for things to appreciate and point out in my thoughts, like the train that takes me there, the people who accompany me and so on. I even have days where my theme or word for the day was love. I look for love within my view. I start to notice the amazing blue sky, see how beautiful it is and how I love seeing it. I love my life, the people around me that make it great and touch me on my journey in life. With every single one of them, even the unnamed person on my train my life would not be so fulfilled like it is today. Thank you for going on this journey with me.

I have even go to work looking for things to appreciate, like the train that takes me there, the people who accompany me and so on. I even have days where my theme or word for the day was love. I look for love within my view. I start to notice the amazing blue sky, see how beautiful it is and how I love seeing it. I love my life, the people around me that make it great and touch me on my journey in life. With every single one of them, even the unnamed person on my train my life would not be so fulfilled like it is today. Thank you for going on this journey with me.

When the ball start rolling, with an initial thought, more and more thought of that same kind come pouring in. So my day begins with a smile and joy stark within me. Life seems brighter than before. And it all starts with my thought of love or appreciation. So though does ignite feeling. Why not choose a thought that embraces you, give you happiness and joy. Don’t you want to be happy, feel fantastic?